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28/02/2026

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2026/02/28#p2

Struggling to make music right now is really starting to get me down.

I know it shouldn't, and that I shouldn't put so much pressure on myself to transmute every idea into gold, but my inner critic is running riot.

Even perfect isn't good enough. 1

My wife suggested just sitting in the studio, not trying to force anything, and meditate until something emerged. Follow my heart, not my head.

I used to meditate, or try, but was never sure if I gained any benefit from it. While the idea is not to clear the mind, I just had so many random thoughts running through my head that it seemed impossible to reach a calm state.

The more unfocused I became, the faster and more random the thoughts. It's like conscious processing was a dam holding back the chaos. Once breeched, there was no way to contain the torrent.

I think I like the idea of meditation more than the practice.


  1. not that anything is, but you get the point  

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