I think it's safe to say that yesterday was a bad day, one of the worst I've had for a while.
Work is continuing to be stressful and I just sat there, looking at my laptop, saying to myself "I can't do it. I can't do it." over and over. It felt like I was having a mini breakdown.
There were a few tears involved I'm not ashamed to admit.
I had started to put the basis of a new track together a couple of days ago and returned to it last night. After playing with the MS-1 for a bit the track went in a completely different direction and became an acid electro piece rather than techno.
I'm liking where it's going so far and have provisionally called it The Meds Don't Work.
Not only have I developed bruxism on the pills this time around, I really don't think they're working. It's strange how I'm having a completely different response to them from last year. My next appointment is on the 19th we can discuss it with the doctor then.
Just wanted to say, I can relate regarding work. I've had very similar experiences over the last year or two. I'm desperate for a change.
Not that this has helped me find a new job (yet), but I have found many of the articles on careershifters.org very refreshing. Not the usual, predictable how-to-find-a-new-job guff. Maybe you'll find something helpful there.