Like The kids are okay - annie mueller...
This is where religion comes in handy. There is relief to be found when you can attribute chaos and crisis and suffering to a bigger plan that will, at some point, be revealed and make it all worthwhile.
If you don't choose the religious route, you'll be encountering chaos and crisis and suffering without the idea of a greater good behind it and boy does that get messy. If you don't find a god to gaze at, you end up staring into the void.
I was born into religion, even tried to embrace it but, by the time I was 9, I grew disillusioned with the whole process.
Right after being confirmed (at 9, it was probably too young but it was expected) I realised that I didn't believe and the whole thing was a bit futile. I explained how I felt and never went to church (in a worshipping capacity) again.
The issue wasn't religion per se, people can believe whatever they want as far as I am concerned, more organised religion. Maybe it was me rebelling against authority (which I've done a lot at various times in my life) or maybe I just thought it all a bit pointless.
Whatever set me down that path has stuck with me on the journey and I do not, and cannot, believe in a god.
That doesn't mean I'm not spiritual and, if anything, I equate the "idea" of a god with the notion of universal oneness – we're all part of "existence" and made of stardust. However, it doesn't stop me being, perhaps, jealous of those with faith who can say they know everything will turn out okay because of "the great plan" whoever, or whatever, has in place.
