I am deliberately trying to instill an ethic of slow writing, taking my time to pull different things together over a number of days, working on something for an extended period rather than just posting before I forget it or lose interest.
The About page on the old randomelements blog said:
“This incarnation of the blog was started on 24th November 2003…”
I first registered that domain in the June and remember reworking it a couple of times when changing between versions of SharePoint. Still, I haven’t got a firm date of when I submitted my first post.
If this blog had a tagline it would be “an ongoing conversation with myself.”
When having a migraine I get incredibly photosensitive, bright light hurts. A lot.
It’s not just the brightness but also contrast.
So, imagine my delight to find the Dark Mode plugin for WordPress which adds a dark mode option to the admin theme.
I mentioned before about removing some of the blog functionality so that the words took centre stage. I still think that’s the correct approach at the present time so have removed the links to the Directory and Blogroll and tidied up the footer. I’m not sure if it’s ironic or fitting that “On this day” informs me it was two years ago to the day that I added the blogroll.
I’m off with a particularly acute migraine, no doubt triggered by a lot of dust and fumes from work I was doing on our youngest daughter’s bedroom yesterday. All the usual symptoms are present.
What’s thrown me more than anything in the past eighteen months or so is the anxiety I’ve been experiencing. Depression, to a degree, is familiar – almost like the Simon and Garfunkel lyric “hello darkness my old friend” – even though it has been the worst I’ve experienced since my early 20’s.
With my return to iOS pushed back a year I decided to change things up a bit.
I’ve been using Edge as my browser of choice since I made the move to Android and it’s been a pretty faithful servant. Despite being based on Chromium, however, it has a few peculiarities. The latest to annoy me is that it doesn’t automatically support dark mode via the “prefers-color-scheme” CSS media query.
Bix on writing about mental health in public:
Writing in public also is crucial for destigmatizing the issue. So those of us who can stomach doing so should definitely do so.
A brief exchange on micro.blog made me more closely examine why I started writing about mental health here.
After admitting (to myself more than anything) that I had problems I needed an avenue to explore and deal with them. All the professional advice is that it’s best to talk but that’s still not something I’m necessarily comfortable doing in person.
On the subject of not blogging for legacy I am reminded of the practice of deleting old tweets.
Before I finally deleted my Twitter account I had considered going down this route; it makes some degree of sense considering the real time nature of the service but conflicts with the notion that tweets can also serve as a public record.
The irony of making a fuss about writing for self but couch it in terms of we instead of I.
I check my blog every day, not through vanity (I don’t have stats) but out of interest to see what’s in the “on this day” section. It’s why I added it after all.
The silence was “always conceived of as a hinge moment”…
“Some people say that’s why it’s two minutes – one minute to look back and one minute to look forward.
“Life stops. We reflect. Do we then go back to where we were and pretend those two minutes never happened, or do those two minutes change us in some way? Do they charge us to do something different?”
Wise words, no matter your path.
We’re away for a couple of days to see our daughter at university. It’s good to spend some time with her now that she’s settled in.
She’s based in Bournemouth but we decided to some to Salisbury Cathedral as we’ve not been here for a while. It’s a fantastic building.
Last night I added three words to the /now page:
Enjoying blogging again
I think that says it all.
I thought it was about time I removed the reference to my (long deceased) newsletter from the subscribe page. It was created for a specific project that never got off the ground.
The recent news that common drugs like aspirin or ibuprofen could be used to treat, or rather prevent, depression was obviously of great interest.
The theory is that, in some people, the immune system is always more active than normal behaving as though there is a persistent low level infection resulting in permanent inflammation. These people “appear to be at a higher risk of developing depression and psychosis.”
It’s the start of November and we’ve got enough Christmas films recorded such that my wife worked out we’d have to watch seven a day, that’s right seven a day, to fit them all in before the 25th December.