So, you can imagine that having done something on Friday being forced to wait 5-10 days for a follow up mail allowing me to take the next step is excruciating. Not to mention that even once I have full confirmation I've still got to wait until February. (More will be revealed after I at least get that initial mail.)
Part of the impatience is excitement, wanting to crack on as quickly as possible, yet part of it is also dissatisfaction with the current state of affairs and that's really no way to live, it's unhealthy but that's just how I am.
The problem is that things become "the new shiny" only to fade very quickly and I'm back at stage one. What I desperately don't want is for this new thing to be a fad, I don't think it is. It's something I've wanted to do since I was at school so has been a lifelong dream. I just hope that the reality matches the dream.